Thought about it. I don’t want to die. If I were, god could play a cruel joke on me and make me reincarnate into the next generation and I don’t want that. Quite happy being a man on my own right. I’m gonna keep going and fuck it we ball
I’ve been begging god for nights now to let me die. By car, by shot, thru sleep. People with actual relationships and things to go for are dead and here I am still alive. They should be alive. I’m a coward. I’m a faux. I’m a loser. I just want to be gone.