It is selfish to intentionally contemplate and commit suicide. Sure you're suffering, sure life is hard, but 2 things can be true at once and you are still selfish. You’re not the only person in your life and you had zero regard for anyone but yourself
When I said contemplate the point was to exclude cases of suicide where it wasn't actually intentional like if you just had a manic episode or something. It wasn't to imply ideation is the problem