
For a while I was plagued by thoughts of “am I trans” because I felt a sort of desire to be more feminine. But I realized that for me that was just because I perceived feminine as equating to cute, and therefore that was desirable. But after I got in a relationship where someone valued me for who I am, I realized that I can be “cute” and desirable and still be a guy.
Well that’s totally valid if all ya wanna do is dress up and look cute! You can even do it every day and still be a guy. But something you should think about is how you would feel if you were viewed as a woman, rather than just a dude dressing feminine. How would you feel if you were called a girl or given she/her pronouns?
I feel like the disingenuous feeling doesn’t necessarily exclude you being trans. It doesn’t sound dissimilar from how friends of mine have felt early in their transition before they really *feel* like they pass as a woman. Could be worth having a close friend gender you feminine for a bit and see how it feels.