
ok so I get what you mean. my dysphoria was never super super bad. like I was able to exist as a man, but it just... kinda felt off? like i was playing a part. and what really helped me figure it out wasn't identifying the dysphoria, but identifying the gender euphoria, and the fact that I was happier when I was recognized as a woman.
me personally, my dysphoria didn’t manifest until puberty. i wasn’t uncomfortable being in my body until it started to change in a way i felt was “wrong” or “unnatural”. it almost felt like playing a part or living someone else’s life. Also, it’s perfectly fine to experiment with gender and accept that you are comfortable in the one you are born in. Finally, gender is a spectrum so don’t feel as if it is necessary for you to “choose” one way or the other. Hope this helps :)