
it should've been when i would cry every time i was excluded from the 'boy presents' (for most holidays my brothers or cousins would get the same theme of gifts like knights or monster trucks or dragons, and i'd either not get it or i'd get the girl version) in reality, i was just completely devastated when i started developing female and the prospect of being a woman until i died
Don’t even remember I was going through some major shit after a traumatic incident and I barely remember the semester it happened in. I was in denial for a year or so beforehand so it was sort of a slow process. But the last straw? No idea. I think I hated myself and my situation so much that I wanted to become someone entirely different and that’s what triggered it. But other than that I got nothing. I think I’m realizing just now how little I remember of that period of my life.
I hated myself sm and I hated how I looked for so long but had no idea why and I didn’t know what to change. Then during covid I started trying to present more masc and then I cut my own hair and even though it was a fugly ass haircut it was super affirming lmao. So then I was like yeah I’m trans
i was in an amino group chat (😭) and sent a pic of an essay i wrote where one guy thought my handwriting was feminine and him and another guy were questioning if i was a girl and i had this moment of panic and realization that i didn’t want to be seen that way and i 100% would’ve said no at the time if i didn’t have an irl friend in the same gc