Personally I’ve found it very rewarding despite what a bunch of chronically online assholes and grifters try to do. It really does get a lot better and there are people out there who will accept you for all you really are. I’d lean towards sticking with how you really feel but it’s an immensely complicated decision which depends on your personal situation. Theres not a lot anyone else can do to make it easy but just know that there are people who want to support you and accept you no matter what