get on hormones if thats something you want, keep it a secret if its unsafe, try to find online or in-person spaces with other trans people. im transfem nonbinary, and even though my family doesnt really respect my identity, im so happy that im on estrogen, and having friends who see me for who i am. i think planned parenthood offers hrt? or you can diy it. i dont really know much about that tbh

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