Become a human being, it is your sole purpose. Look at maslows needs hierarchy, when all of these needs are met (to a point) you will feel fulfillment.
1
Anonymous#22w
Sounds pretty unattainable tbh
1
AnonymousOP2w
Then move away from wherever you are now, you need to find a place or find a community where these needs can be met. Assimilate into a different country, become someone new. If you’re stuck in school, think about it in the long term, you should not deny your soul its purpose.
1
Anonymous#22w
I don't really have the means financially to just move wherever wherever
And if I were to just do that without any money then I'd be even worse off