I’m breaking down. I have Ed and I recently started eating (around 500 cals a day) and spit and chew the rest of my food. I gained 10lbs from eating those 500 and I can’t live with myself. Idk what to do. If I restrict ik I will lose but idk I DONT KNOW
Do an inpatient program im so serious. You cannot live off 500 a day
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Anonymous4d
Back when I was like 10 to 12 pounds lighter I tried to go outpatient but they denied me
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Anonymous#14d
I think my spit and chew racks up to like 600 cals a day tbh tho
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AnonymousOP4d
Thats hardly any better at all
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Anonymous#14d
I just don’t get why I’m gaining weight bc even with that is less than like 900, but before I was eating like 100-200 at max and spitting and chewing for 8 hours a day. Now I eat 3 low cal meals and spit and chew for like 2 hours
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AnonymousOP4d
This behavior is taking your life from you and you need treatment
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Anonymous#14d
Ik it is but I can stop it if I knew if I ate even low cal I wouldn’t gain more weight but that doesn’t seem to be the case
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AnonymousOP4d
Have you been to an inpatient or even outpatient program/clinic/etc for this ?
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AnonymousOP4d
I’m sorry :( what did they say?
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Anonymous#14d
My weight was to low that they wanted me inpatient. But ik myself, I would weight restore then go back to normal life and drop again. I just don’t understand how I’m gaining weight rn it doesn’t make sense
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AnonymousOP4d
If trained and experienced professionals are telling you that you need inpatient, then isn’t it at least worth giving a try? Is the alternative of living like this really the better choice?
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Anonymous#14d
Ik myself I’ll gain a bunch of weight then get out and drop. Last time I went up to 118 I dropped to 74. Then went up to 86 now I’m 97 and I’m already going insane
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AnonymousOP4d
You didn’t have the support of an inpatient follow up team last time. Just because it didn’t work before when you tried without help doesn’t mean that it won’t work when you try again with support this time