
The stress of engineering college, the stress of being older brother and son. The stress of having been so intimately exposed to death as a sixteen year old… alcohol and weed usage helping but making worse. Than a gf which led to a restraining order. Thank god I had no student loan debt thanks to dads life insurance and a doting mother
They got Oppenheimer’s schizophrenic diagnosis wrong. For me I was in the icu cuz I was taking too much ibuprofen cuz I was having migraines. After I recovered I argued the weed was protecting my digestive system ands when I went home from college for summer I had no access to weed but I was still taking ibuprofen. Arguing this with doctors got me diagnosed schizophrenic
it does kind of sound like maybe that does resonate with you a little bit though. either way, labels don’t really matter as much as staying in touch with your mental health providers and taking their advice tbh. it sounds like you have dealt with a lot and staying on top of medication management could be really beneficial, if you’re on any. if not, its worth considering
I’ve been in therapy half a lifetime. All I can say is thank goodness I get substantial disability payments but like it’s not really living it’s just surviving . I’m happy to be alive but that’s about it. Long story but a young woman came into my workplace to pick up her food and she looked so happy to see me and it kinda made me think when was the last time I was that happy