
Quieting your mind will only make life more difficult for you. You need to be able to think, it’s how you learn new skills and make wise decisions. I know it sometimes can feel as though your thoughts are out of your own control. You’ll need external help from a therapist or close confidant to break that thought loop. Otherwise the cycle will just continue over again.
Yeah, I’m someone who probably needs their mind (or at least cognition) more than most people, but it’s so heavy sometimes. Therapy doesn’t help much; friends usually make it worse. In fact, the only way I’ve made much progress is by relying on myself rather than others. I really appreciate your response though, you and OP have been empathetic and it makes me feel human.
Of course. I understand how you feel, I was there once too. I’m also very self-reliant. What helped me was reading about cognitive distortions, then I was able to catch myself in the negative thought loops that caused my depression. It takes a very gradual change of catching those thoughts and forcing yourself to think differently, even if you don’t believe yourself at first. You have to retrain your mind. Things are bad now, but you’ll live to see the sun rise again. Good luck my friend.