
He said it all so genuinely. I just hate feeling like it wasn’t ever real. Like I didn’t matter. I want to reach out to him and just ask. I feel like I need the closure because when I ended it he was still saying “I’m too busy to devote myself to you fully right now, but I do love you”. I want him to know I see through the bullshit or have him realize it was a bullshit excuse and step up. It would be easier to move on if I hated him.
It’s just hard because he was never mean. He just didn’t prioritize me. He apologized and never blamed me. He listened. But he never made the effort. I’m just confused and I just want to ask him for clarity because how tf can he do that and not care? Like I feel like I can never trust when someone says I love you again because they could be fucking faking it. But I just want to hear what he says because I never called him out. I told him “it was okay. He was just busy.” even when I was leaving.