Anonymous #1 3h

This next part is more personal to me and what worked for me, but I thought it was worth sharing: in my recovery I viewed myself as a projection of my inner child. For instance, why would I deny myself this food when I wouldn’t deny my little me this food? If she deserves to eat then so do I. I worked a lot to reconnect myself with my inner child because she didn’t think weight or calories were a big deal - she didn’t even know they existed.

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Anonymous #1 3h

A large part of it has to come from your motivation to get better. It’s one thing to say you want to but another to get the ball rolling. I’m not saying this is you, but generally speaking, you have to realize that you can’t hate yourself into a version of yourself that you can love - that’s still hating yourself. You can’t live a full life on an empty stomach.

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Anonymous #1 3h

I just realized this is kind of pep-talk-esque but you owe it to yourself to get better. When recovering you have to mean it - I didn’t mean it the first time so it was no surprise to me when I ended up in treatment again. Recovery isn’t something you can put on the back burner - you have to be intentional. It’s better than I possibly could have imagined being on the other side. Nothing feels better than being healthy does, and recovery is possible if you want it to be.

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Anonymous #1 3h

Another part to this that’s probably more personal is imagining how hurt my inner child would be if she could comprehend how much I’ve damaged myself by starving.

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Anonymous #1 3h

It’s also worth journaling what a life without your eating disorder could look like - all the things you want to do free from obsessing over numbers and behaviors.

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