If I disappeared mysteriously and wasn’t around to help support my girlfriend she would probably die. So no. I couldn’t. I’d stay here and spend the rest of my life wondering what I would have been able to see out there. I know that if I left the thought that my girlfriend would probably be dead without me would tear me up inside and I wouldn’t be able to live with the guilt. I wouldn’t want to leave her and my family anyways even without the guilt being a factor.