OCD on Sidechat | Idk if this is relatable but my OCD requires everything to be perfect to the point where it actually ruins my life. Like I bought a new planner for 2026, but I have to accurately plan, track, and log my entire fucking life or else I’ve ruined everything

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OCD 5w

Idk if this is relatable but my OCD requires everything to be perfect to the point where it actually ruins my life. Like I bought a new planner for 2026, but I have to accurately plan, track, and log my entire fucking life or else I’ve ruined everything

Anonymous 5w

Like step one is me researching the best planners, pens, fucking STICKERS to use. And then I have to figure out what the optimal way of tracking everything is. Like my yearly, monthly, weekly, daily goals. And then I have to figure out my schedules, routines, habits, hobbies

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OP 5w

God forbid I fail or miss a day or mess up the planner is now ruined and I need a new one. BUT ALSO I can’t just start a new one on a random day. It has to be a day that ✨makes sense✨ in my head, like a Sunday or Monday or Wednesday. And if I can’t get anything aligned perfectly I’m stuck in this weird freeze period

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OP 5w

And it impacts like every single aspect of my life 😭 I thought maybe I’ll just stop tracking and planning everything but that fills me with immense dread and anxiety. I’m actually spiraling somebody SEDATE ME

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OP 5w

This disorder has to be on par with BPD schizophrenia atp. So much suffering

Anonymous

#1 5w

No I literally feel insane CONSTANTLY. The amount of mental gymnastics going on inside my head daily is crazy, I dream of what having a normal brain feels like

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OP 5w

😂😂😂exactly! It’s sucks for me too because before 18 I was Normal with 0 ocd.

Anonymous

#1 4w

I feel like I THOUGHT I was normal, but I’m starting to realize a lot of what I’ve done my whole life was just OCD