
I was just completely alone and now I’m not at all. I even have neighbors I could talk to anytime if I really really needed. Friends I can just text and they’d probably tell me to come over if I was struggling. I have people to help me with the things I find difficult to do alone and it’s just so completely utterly better. I don’t know how long it will be until I take this for granted but it’s been a long time now and I still don’t. I hope I never do.
The comparison in safety and love I feel is just extraordinary. I feel like I’m becoming myself over time. Slower than I’d like but still. I just don’t even know how to process the fact that I’ve had so many good things happen to me. Like 90% of what I begged for during my sort of dark period I have now. I love my friends so much <3