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Neurodivergent 5w

When the person you love more than anyone else in the world shuts you out for multiple weeks and won’t tell you what’s going on but you don’t want to seem like a self absorbed bitch and ask if you did something wrong so you just keep checking in on them

9 upvotes, 8 comments. Sidechat image post by Anonymous in Neurodivergent. "When the person you love more than anyone else in the world shuts you out for multiple weeks and won’t tell you what’s going on but you don’t want to seem like a self absorbed bitch and ask if you did something wrong so you just keep checking in on them"

Anonymous 5w

We’ve been together 6 years, and I love him with my whole being. He’s normally pretty good about just telling me what’s going on but the last few weeks have been rough. He ran out of mood stabilizers and hasn’t been able to set up an appointment with his doctor to get a refill and he’s been manic and keeping odd waking hours so I’m asleep when he’s awake a lot which has made talking harder and he has been left alone with his thoughts too much I guess because when I kept pushing the topic,

Anonymous 5w

Oh shit, less than ten minutes after I added those comments, the messaged that the “no share topic” was getting too big and I started lightly encouraging them to please please talk to me and I think maybe they’re actually going to open up this time?

Anonymous 5w

yeah, I had this in january… it sucks. if they’re not willing to be open about any issues, that’s their problem, all you can do is wait and see if they have the guts

Anonymous 5w

I know this sounds bad and selfish and stupid but one hard part about this is that I literally can’t be upset or frustrated at him, it’s not his fault. He needs his anti seizure meds, he can’t help that he ran out of his other meds, he can’t help that he can’t get an appointment to refill them, he can’t help that the hallucinations caused such bad paranoia that he thinks everyone he loves is being controlled, none of it’s his fault

Anonymous

OP 5w

They told me it was “no share topic” and we have *a lot* of topics of varying degrees of trauma, and I can’t figure out what could possibly be so bad that he wouldn’t tell me? Especially if it’s upsetting him this much. I know abt his SA trauma in detail and the times he tried to kill himself, I’ve been on the phone talking him down plenty of times, he’s consoled me when I’ve had nightmares about being pinned down and smothered, he’s FaceTimed me when I’ve been hiding in a basement and nonverbal

Anonymous

OP 5w

He told me his therapist keeps pushing him to tell someone about it and he tells me things he won’t even consider telling other people so I don’t understand what this topic could be. I admit, I’m also nosy, especially when it’s in his best interest that I know. And sometimes I don’t know when to quit pushing, so I’ve been maybe not pushing enough this time because I don’t want to upset him. But I really just want to know why he’s upset

Anonymous

OP 5w

And now everything makes sense, he’s reached the point of being off his meds that the hallucinations have started. They’ve been telling him not to trust me so here we go with fixing this and figuring out how to get his meds refilled. Yay.

Anonymous

OP 5w

He is finally explaining, and I am realizing just how bad it’s been the last couple weeks and that he desperately needs his anti psychotics and for this manic episode to end but without his mood stabilizers it isn’t going to end because his seizure meds cause manic episodes, he’d probably have to stop taking his anti depressants to get his mood down and I’d rather him be psychotic than suicidal so this will be an adventure, the last time it was this bad was right before he got diagnosed