
The neurotype itself is set in stone sometime during gestation and will never change. But the management of it will absolutely vary over time. Focus abilities and attention spans have to be intentionally maintained. Those non-medication ADHD management things are v important (but won’t be able to replace medication for most people). You also sound like you might be burned out or otherwise anxious 🫶
I have severe social anxiety. It is due to my childhood or lack of one. As a child I was made to feel constant guilt. My mom used emotional & mental manipulation constantly. I was severely depressed but forced to smile. I have repressed emotions and lack of what it feels like to just be happy and relaxed. I think in situations where I’m around a lot of new people and the expectations of “acting normal/happy” has put me in a zone where I am there but not really there. It’s a lonely existence.