
Whenever I get upset I genuinely have to hold back insane intrusive urges to hit others, me, hit my head into a walk publicly or not, or hurt myself. Over the SIMPLEST of issues. Never SH it never goes away, like drugs. Like oh? I said the wrong dialogue option at a cashier? Time to fucking crash out
Similar? I worry that im going to do it like i get super anxious that im going turn the wheel and kill people even thought just the thought alone stresses me tf out so why would i do that but what if i do it against my will and then i’m going to go to jail and oh i just ran a stoplight now im REALLY going to jail