
if i could use a gif i’d use Sandy Cheeks during the hibernation episode going “NO YOU AIN’T” bc i love you and i’d love to hear your autistic description of the video game even if i’ve never heard of it before. your dad eats poop for breakfast and i hate him but i would never hate you. will you pls see tomorrow with me? i bet the sky will be different.
It is hard. I’ve been treated like this before too by my stepdad and my brothers, so I know it. It’s lonely. I won’t tell you it’s not. What I will tell you is that you have strangers like me; alone together. I always found solace in talking to the moon or a waterway. You and I look at the same moon and sky, and my water here will inevitably find its way to you there. Revert back to your senses and leave your thoughts behind. Just a little time, just a little something else instead.
you have me right now. i’m sending those thoughts and love through the water in the air, the sunshine on your walls, the clouds in the sky, and the sounds that you hear. tomorrow it will all sound different and it will all look different. you have time on your side. water is on your side. the sunlight is on your side. even when it’s too bright or too wet, the water and sun are still there FOR you. sometimes i’m too bright or too soggy, and that’s okay too & same for you; i’d still like you too.
you are more than allowed to feel like shit. feel it, rub yourself in it, marinate, anything to get to the other side. there’s a whole lot more for you, and it’s waiting for you to get there. you have time on your side. A fav song of mine goes like this: “Sometimes existential dread comes ringing through loud and clear. I’ll adjust and simply let go. I guess it is what it is. I’m not sure of what’s coming next, but I’ll be all right as long as I keep breathing. I know I’ll be alright.”
I know music suggestions get a little bit dismissive, since i’ve no way to know if you’d like it or appreciate it in your current state, especially since it helped *me* so it seems like I’m centering myself, but i genuinely give a shit about you even though you’re a stranger. what were the odds i saw this within 15min of you posting this, ya know? Try the album Circles by Mac Miller. it’s posthumous, but it had a lot of advice that i needed to tell myself. i hope the lyrics might help you too.
I understand. I suggest the album lovingly as a gift from me to you, with messages and lyrics that are delivered to you lovingly as tools to navigate the waters you’re treading. I’m calling for you from the shore, tossing anything that floats in your direction, eagerly awaiting your arrival. Keep swimming and reach out for help to stay afloat. Music is what pulled me in, particularly Mac and his friends. We couldn’t save him, so I’ll do everything I can to help you. Genuinely.