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Neurodivergent 1w
I hate myself lowkey
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Anonymous 1w

I don’t like myself Im a bad person. But I know that wallowing rather than fixing my issues is selfish. But that just makes me feel *more* like a bad person. And all of this is just a cycle that makes it near impossible to tell my therapist about this. I’m tired of it. I just wanna go back to feeling like a good person again but I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to forgive myself.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1w

And I’m not saying all this for sympathy I really don’t care about that. Cause even if I got it, it wouldn’t work in this instance. I’m just venting I guess.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1w

I have people who care about me but they shouldn’t. I hate this feeling. I just wanna be alone. Go to class alone, don’t talk to anyone there except discussions, go back to my dorm, do homework, go eat alone, shower and go to bed. No activities no friendships I don’t wanna talk to anyone I just wanna be left alone. I don’t wanna hurt anyone without realizing. And people caring about me just makes me worried I will.

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 1w

I wish I could tell them about this. But I just don’t want them to hate me. But that makes me feel even worse cause then it feels like I’m lying to them.

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