
I don’t know who I am and I’ve been in this meat suit for over 3 decades. It definitely doesn’t help when you have a kid, they suck all the life from you and use it to do the complete opposite of what you want. I’m a lackluster person and parent, the exact thing I swore I’d never be.
here i am struggling to take care of myself and form a personality, wdym i have to have a job and develop internally (in ways i struggle to even describe with words) if i have any hope of responsibly having children (ie i need to unlearn all my neuroticness, practice selflessness, become emotionally stable and patient and learn how to raise a child)