idk if it’s adhd or depression bc i have both but if i have a really good day of socializing/interaction i’ll come home and make myself miserable… not sure about the sciences stuff behind that but yeah

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Cause it feels like it’ll all inevitably come crashing down when they discover some part of your personality that feels wrong to the outside world, and even if it doesn’t then you still feel like either you’re betraying them by still being with them or they secretly hate you but don’t want to tell you.

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*went

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#1 & 2 are right, another part of it may be a dopamine crash and a history of being bullied. I think it’s that things go really well with friends but after they leave, I’m left wondering when the next time I’ll get to experience that feeling will be. I get the feeling when I hang out with other neurodivergents, too, so it’s not because of the fundamentally different things about me. I do get the feeling of being secretly hated, but that’s because of being hurt often by people I trusted

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