
Like I know it’s casual and we’re decent friends but ig I didn’t rlly keep that in mind the whole time? This is my first time doing shit with anyone so ig I got caught up in the happiness of someone my age actually finding me desirable. They didn’t even lead me on or anything beyond the drunken or high “I miss you” so idk why I feel so shocked and sad that it was causal. As if that was the closest I’m ever gonna get to affection