Anonymous #2 10h

I'm 426 days sober, actually 🥲 So it's been 426 days since I've felt even a semblance of happiness lmfaoooo I hate my brain wiring so damn much

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Anonymous OP 10h

I don’t know your situation but I do know that your mind is extremely powerful and if you tell yourself and other people that you are not happy, you will never be happy. I know it sounds crazy but even just lying to yourself and smiling when u don’t want to can help u feel better. Congrats on your sobriety tho! I hope you find happiness

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Anonymous #2 10h

Oh I know lmao I've played that game a lot. All the mindset games. I've been through hella programs, hella therapy, psych ward, ED residential, detox, rehab, etc I've been through hella medications At the end of the day ig I'm just a wildly miserable person. I act very very happy and bubbly all the time. But I'm tired. Now that I'm past a year sober, and just turned 26, I'm like well. I think I'm simply a lost cause 😭

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Anonymous OP 10h

Dawg I can't even find an in-network therapist 'equipped to handle my complex issues' now 😭 my previous insurance got way too expensive, and the professionals I need access to are now no longer obtainable for me It is what it is. I'll be fine. Ty for your kindness ❤️

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Anonymous OP 10h

I’m rooting for u!

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Anonymous #2 9h

Ty kind stranger 🥲❤️ your enthusiasm has actually granted me a lil spark of motivation/hope, so really, ty

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