strangers hit me w ableism bc they can clock me as autistic based on my mannerisms / how i talk. but when i acknowledge that i’m not formally diagnosed, others tell me i Can’t be autistic. everyone else’s assessment of my neurotype counts, just not my own
just feels like a longterm continuation of how my mother would call me the r-slur repeatedly but refused to make any attempts to get me evaluated for anything other than depression!