
Mom was addicted to meth. Dad was noble and extremely strict. The separated. Confusion in early years. Saw mom was good but damaged, created a sense of wanting to help. Dada strictness created a desire to always be better. For the longest time ever I felt like I had to be worthy enough for love so I grew and learned a lot about a lot of things. Eventually it became too much and tried to numb my feelings with things like weed. After much time reading journaling and living, I decided to look into
My mom has bpd and was lowkey fucking insane and married to an abusive dickhead who also has npd (no shade to ppl w those personality disorders my mom is doing so much better now with meds and therapy and my stepdad was a dick for a lot of other reasons in addition to npd I truly believe ppl w npd can be good people and have meaningful relationships) and my dad white-knuckled his way thru adhd and anxiety so he thinks I should be able to too (I cannot!) I did not turn out great
My parents were extremely supportive; my mom actually got an ADHD diagnosis because once my brother and I were diagnosed with AuDHD she started realizing she had symptoms as well, lol! Everyone in my family goes to therapy (except my youngest brother but he somehow came out neurotypical and is the most average guy ever?? wild) and while we aren’t exactly the type of people to discuss our emotions with one another, I’ve always had a support system with them.
neither of my parents are diagnosed with anything. where they come from mental health/illnesses isn’t really talked about. that being said they definitely have undiagnosed issues. my dad thinks he knows everything in the world, that’s he’s better educated than drs (he’s not), very contradictory in his beliefs, loses his mind over money, gets upset when things don’t go his way, and very sporadic. my mom is more sensible but even she has issues.
my past. Beginning to rewrite the narrative so it fits me. Currently 27, just finished my career in robotics, opening a food truck and inventing some things. I’ve been in a band. I’ve had many friends yet still felt alone. I’ve loved, cried, yelled. Now I’m finally learning to love myself, and love other peoples “flaws”