i have friends up i could literally text rn. but none im super close with. so i sit here with extreme boredom and loneliness that can only be somewhat alleviated by talking to a close friend. i don’t wanna relapse but im exhausted of this cycle
i feel like i’m alone in a crowded room. i pull 1-2 all nighters a week chasing some sort of alternative for that need for close connection despite knowing im not gonna find it staying up doomscrolling. i want to give up