
im never going to be actually happy. I’ve tried and tried but I’m still as miserable as ever. I have such a huge fear of people leaving me and I’m noticing the patterns already and it’s scaring and eating me alive everyday and just making me cry. I’m so exhausted I can’t do this anymore. I just want to be put out my misery.
I’m not saying this is gonna fix you, but have you ever tried meditation? If you are gonna be here for a bit longer I recommend it. It might ease your mind a bit. But it takes time, and I’m not saying it’s a fix, just a possible quality of life improvement. I wanna kms a lot to but meditation has made me happier. But it’s hard and boring at times so you have to have patience.