i don’t want to be hard to love. i don’t want to be too much or not enough. i want it to be easy to love me and i want to be just the right amount. but i don’t know if i can ever get there. and i hate it.
It’s hard to grapple with those big and nebulous problems. But life isn’t zero sum. Try and focus in practical, incremental, and day to day things you can achieve.