please don’t. it’s addicting and so hard to stop and easy to fall back into

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and i guess this is my way of punishing myself?

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It’s not worth it. I’ve been stuck in its grip for 15 years. It may seem like a good idea but it only leaves you feeling more lonely and isolated and gives you a terrible sense of shame. You can make it through this dark time in life 💜

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Start going to the gym and really really push yourself. Completely lock in and make sure you’re eating enough and go to the gym like 5 days a week. Really really push yourself at the gym and actually go to failure. It hurts like a bitch, trust me. And it’s a form of healthy self harm because it hurts but it’s not harming your body, it’s making it stronger instead.

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