Anonymous #1 1w

In a way yeah. Like, I know she probably had her reasons. She hated inconveniencing people, she hated making people worry. She probably didn’t think it would be that bad so she just didn’t. But part of me is still just so mad

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Anonymous OP 1w

i literally know what you mean like i know mine had his reasons but dude he was also stubborn. i understand being mad i have been mad for so long about it bc he KNEW how me and other people would feel if he was gone. is that similar to reasons you’re mad?

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Anonymous #1 1w

I think so, it’s a hard emotion to untangle. I wonder a lot if she regretted not doing it in her final conscious moments, I don’t know if she actually thought she was gonna die. She had a sudden very bad heart attack, but she had been in end stage kidney failure for who knows how long and didn’t tell anyone except for my paternal aunt because she didn’t want to worry anyone 🫠 I wish she had gotten past that because I would have rather worried while she got help instead of worried wondering-

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Anonymous OP 1w

-if she was gonna suddenly not be basically brain dead and pull through before we pulled her plug.

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Anonymous OP 1w

ugh i’m so sorry. i feel like all the emotions surrounding situations like these are hard to untangle. i wonder if mine regretted it too but in his case he knew he was going to die and my grandma has alzheimer’s so badly she doesn’t know how to work a phone anymore which he totally knew. i hope you’re doing good to cope with these emotions and feelings, ik how easy it is to resort to negative mechanisms :(

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