
I’m very much the same, I don’t think it’s a “normal” reaction though. a very understandable one I would argue, but yeah, you might be dealing with some kind of underlying trauma and/or emotional regulation issues. totally mentally healthy people tend to feel like they’re under less pressure than that
to be clear though, that’s not any type of failing on your end, but rather something you deserve support and understanding around 🫡 hope you can get the root of those feelings figured out & addressed so you don’t have to keep beating yourself up for not being perfect at everything
thank you for the honesty, i think it’s some sort of perfectionism-pressure trait I have, if that makes sense? the whole “make it look good OR ELSE” mindset - and it gets so tiring. i hope i’m able to figure it out because i think my anxiety is just fueling those extreme thoughts of hate. considering my history, i may have an emotional regulation issue (family versus friends versus work, etc) but who knows