I’m very much the same, I don’t think it’s a “normal” reaction though. a very understandable one I would argue, but yeah, you might be dealing with some kind of underlying trauma and/or emotional regulation issues. totally mentally healthy people tend to feel like they’re under less pressure than that
thank you for the honesty, i think it’s some sort of perfectionism-pressure trait I have, if that makes sense? the whole “make it look good OR ELSE” mindset - and it gets so tiring. i hope i’m able to figure it out because i think my anxiety is just fueling those extreme thoughts of hate. considering my history, i may have an emotional regulation issue (family versus friends versus work, etc) but who knows