I’ve never been welcome in this world. The other guys won’t take me in because they’re complacent in their shallow hierarchies or down to earth thinking cuz they’re from another different world than me mentally and the girls won’t accept me because they’re scared of me for something I can’t change so they’ll dump me in with a category of the worst of mankind for something I can’t control. I don’t belong with people. I’m a mistake for existing and I spend every day of my life apologizing for it

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I feel like I haven’t connected to another person in years. Like I’m the only person is real because no matter how much I’m begging for help, everyone just watches you struggle. Nobody should have to feel this kind of pain. If I saw somebody going through this much pain, no matter how hard I try to pretend I dont care there’s still gotta be some kind of primal instinct to save someone against my will from this level of agony like when you try to drown but your body tries to save yourself

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And the worst part is even tho I will never be welcome or accepted by other people they will still judge me. Ruin any chance of me connecting with others even if I did have the chance. Plant seeds of insecurities to poison me like a punishment for existing. I’m not welcome in this world

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