I feel like I ruin a good time with my voice and face and energy. I don’t think I am a mean or selfish person, I’m just so damn annoying and too hyperactive. No matter how hard I try to not be that way, I always am and I always regret it.

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I hung out with my friend, her friend, and her friends roommate today and I feel like it started off so good, the mood was lightened, the conversation was flowing, and I had high hopes. But it’s always one unfunny joke or cringe action that makes people pull away from me a bit and start leaving me on the outside. When it was time for everyone to leave, the roommate i mentioned told my friend it was nice meeting her and didn’t even look at me before walking away even though

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