It’s not how I feel that kicks my ass with depression the most, it’s the intense loneliness I get from not being able to explain to people how much I hate myself and how much I just like do not want to be alive.
Write it down or record yourself saying them. Hearing your own thoughts makes it clearer.
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Anonymous2w
Yeah, it’s kind of the self loathing that comes along with it that hurts so bad. Like why do I hate myself so much right now when technically everything looks ok on the surface
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Anonymous#12w
You also don't need to have a particular journal. Just sheets of paper and a pen will do. Then, perhaps you can self reflect or store it for your future self to look back to.