
OP- I went through this too. The enforced gendering of language and bodies is something that is unlearned over time. Especially as you learn what terms are right for you and how to express yourself. I even after I learned how to refer to myself I still struggled bc I had internalized what other people had told me about what it means to be trans or nonbinary- none of that matters. Do what feels right for your body and expression of self. Lots of love from another nb 🫶
I did this for the longest time as a ftm. I saw it as like something I was used to being labeled or called. Once I started hearing my preferred name and pronouns a lot more often my internal voice changed. Just keep mentally correcting yourself when you notice and it’ll become normal over time