DAE struggle with thoughts of detransition on the basis of desirability? Like I love how I look now but when I think of dating or my really strong crush it’s like a black hole of thoughts about how I’d only be attractive to him if I was a girl again
I think I’m in like the prologue to that. I haven’t even started transitioning yet but I’m terrified that no woman I love will ever accept me unless I keep living in dysphoric purgatory as a man