
Yea so we all want a normal life. And words of advice would be think hard about what you want and how that looks. Do you put yourself in situations where you’ll actually meet someone like that? Like I have a vague idea of the guy I would like and I know that I’m not in any situations where I would meet him so I try to put myself in new situations to find him
Another thing is you’re using concepts like masculinity masculinity is still kinda vague and you might need to work on developing your definition of it so you’ll know it when you see it. And you might also want to consider that people are more complex than you see. Maybe they aren’t all that masculine at a first glance