i just don’t wanna end up alone :( basically, and i CAN romantically date so maybe i just DO IT and suck up the boredom of vanilla sex just so i have someone a r o u n d because i have friends right now but when they’re all paired off and making babies im still just going to be me :( 6/6

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which is, fine, but like :( i don’t want kids so im afraid all of my friends are going to HAVE kids and then I’ll be alone :( because of course i can support them and everything, but they’ll have events to go to and family time and then i’ll be, just, alone :( i always thought id have a partner or something so that id have someone around to hang with 4/?

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but sex is only fun if it’s kinky for me, like vanilla sex is SO boring and kink is fun but the thought of someone actually getting ME off is generally pointless and romance is fun and chill :) like i enjoy having someone that i like being around,,,around me and it’s nice to get dinner or hang out and stuff, but what i feel for that person is like,,,not??? romantic??? i don’t know, i have nothing to compare it to! 2/?

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i do know that when i get broken up with, if i get to keep the person in my life then i don’t care that im not dating them anymore. my first boyfriend broke up with me and i comforted HIM through it and then asked him about basic boundaries 🙃 ANYWAY so im aroace spec. but ive just come to the conclusion that maybe im,,,VERY aroace, and not really,,,attracted at ALL to ANYONE 3/?

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and being aroace is FINE but it’s hard when literally A FEW DAYS AGO my coworker asked if i was seeing anyone and might be getting engaged soon (because she’s engaged) and i was like ??? i have an awesome job and just got a car and a tattoo and am planning a big vacation, im not bored enough to date?? (i didn’t say that, i awkward laughed and said no) but that exact thought it what made me think maybe im more aro than i thought 5/?

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