
As a cis dude, it’s hard to understand your struggle. And any advice I give is obviously not universal (theres lots of dudes that in no way share my sense of masculinity and I would loathe to hang out with) but to me it sounds like a confidence issue. I’m sure most dudes don’t see you as a freak, but getting in your own head about it won’t help. I’d say to start by looking for shared hobbies. When I was in college I played board games and went rock climbing with my homies