
It sucks because I’m just told to find a partner who doesn’t want sex but I still do. I just don’t want it in the way people think is “correct” I’ve tried faking it to see if I could force myself into that mindset by like sexting people a few times, but I won’t lie, it ended with me feeling like I got borderline sexually assaulted
I’m terrified of trying to fake it in a relationship so people don’t get scared and leave me right away, and having that mask eventually start falling when they notice how uncomfortable I feel after they make me compliment their nude body during sex, or when I eventually start asking them not to send pictures etc