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LGBTQIA+ 15h
Vent post?: when I was an older teen I identified as ftm, I think a lot of this was due to feeling internalized transphobia about nb people and wanting to fit in a box that felt more “accepted”. These days I’m out as nb and it feels right and great, but —
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Anonymous 15h

— at the same time I feel guilty kinda? Because I met so many friends when I identified as a guy and most people I’m friends with remember the time I was ftm. Idk if it’s an ocd or anxiety thing or what, but I can’t stop feeling guilty about not being 100% honest with myself and others, I’m so afraid my friends judge me for being more feminine now and embracing my nb identity

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Anonymous 3h

it's so funny bc i had the opposite; i was nonbinary for a while before i was trans due to internalized transphobia and denial. it doesn't make our experiences any less valid (if anything, it validates it more bc we tried smth and now we know for sure it doesn't work for us) exploration and learning is super natural and not knowing is totally okay. change and fluidity are really common and it doesn't change your validity

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 15h

Idk if anyone else has dealt with this kind of feeling, it’s been eating at me since I came out as nb, I know there’s nothing wrong with experimenting on your journey to learn who you are but that still doesn’t get rid of the guilty feeling

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 3h

i also felt guilty because it felt like i was lying to everyone for a really long time, especially when i knew but was still scared to tell ppl. honestly once you live authentically the guilt goes away really quickly and people mostly don't care (they might have questions, and at least with the ppl around me, they didn't have any negative feelings) it's def a strange situation and can be uncomfortable to sit with, but living true imo is a world changer

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