every minute together, she would make out w/ men in front of me at parties and deny to our friend group even though they knew we were obviously too close to j be friends. I was hung up for her and loyal to her that entire year, never wanted anyone else. Finally at the end of freshman year she said she told her mom ab us, that her mom called me the devil, and that we could never be together. I took that and was upset and devastated, but then ended up talking to new girls that summer. Things then

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ended up not going well with the other girl so for 2nd year back we became this in and off thing, her visibly pulling away eventually bc I was too upset ab the other girl. We did end up getting back together even when I get with another girl in between and dating, but it didn’t end well bc she had substance abuse issues that hit too close to home personally for me. So then I got back with her and realized something was missing, and she was pretty bad with feelings and just being a comforting

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person overall. So then over that spring break I ended up deciding my feelings weren’t love they were possibly attachment issues so I broke it off with her after spring break, especially because I started feeling feelings for someone else and I had respect to do it in person the minute we got back to college. She was upset bc I didn’t tell her that it was “another girl” bc I decided that wasn’t her business anymore with the toxic cycle she gave me with the she loves me she loves me not plus so

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She painted me out to be the evil one even though when I ended it with her she decided to throw personal things in my face like my father being not present in my life for the reason the way I am, which she never ended up explaining what that even was or how I acted but whatever. I can’t forgive something like that, but I do feel like sometimes that attachment lingers and not because of love but because of anger. I am sorry for this rant but I just need advice, not sure how to think about this.

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many other body and self image issues of not being enough even with being patient. I end up now still to this day dating the girl i developed feelings for then and now we are together almost 8 months. I am so happy with the girl I’m with but I can’t help but something think about her. I saw she was with this girl for a few months after me and treated her so well, went public with her, did the little things I sought out for and it really made me upset and contemplate my entire self again. She

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That sounds like a lot. I’m happy to give advice if you want but are you sure that’s what you’re looking for rn? It seems like you maybe just want to vent (which is totally fair)

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