
Could it maybe be anxiety? Your experience doesn’t really sound like any acespec sexuality I’m aware of, they’re usually related to attraction and it sounds like the act is the only thing you’re having a hard time with. Sex aversion is a different (but related) thing, I’ve known people who were straight but sex-averse and people who were ace but sex-positive (I think they used another word, it’s been a while since we talked about it
I feel fine afterwards you know, but like i very rarely want to initiate and sometimes i just draw it out till the end of the day not because sex itself grosses me out its more that i just dont want to do it much idk, i mean it FEELS good but i just dont wanna do it idk genuinely dont know why because she genuinely makes me feel so good i feel bad because i feel like its not fair that i avoid it