
I love my unitarian universalist church and would highly recommend one for anyone who wants the community feel, the singing, the food, and hopefully the friendship. you would not be the only one navigating healing your spirituality/religion and there's no pressure to think any certain way!
Queen never be disgusted by who you are! You are capable of love and you are beautiful! As for religion if they judge you do dont except you A. Thats their loss and B. They may be struggling with the same internalized guilt or may just be misguided and misinformed about what our community is. We are who we are dont run from it embrace it and forgive yourself because at the end of the day you are the only person who’s opinion matters!
But I’ll say I also always have the irrational fear that god won’t love me because of how I feel or that I’ll be seen differently but I have learned more and more of who God is in my own time and have realized that he sees us all the same. He does not show favoritism. It’s just terrifying because I’ve been raised in such a conservative area where it’s frowned upon. Which just instills the same feeling of internalized guilt.
I’m Christian and I’ve been raised Christian all my life but just recently I’ve started to realize I’m pretty sure I’m either bi or lesbian and I’ve taken the time to learn who God is through my eyes and not others and what I’ve collected that God loves us no matter what and I don’t think loving people regardless of gender is truly sinful or bad. He knows our heart and what our intentions are and that’s all that matters.