
For clarification cuz someone flagged it, this was like a year ago, it was after a Christmas party where my female friends asked me how my love life at college was and after I told them how bad not only it but also my social life was they said some shit about “oh you’ll find someone, youre a good man,” or whatever and when you go to college and make no new friends that hurts to hear and I hated myself really badly so I would go onto dating apps knowing I was too ugly and in a bad mental state
And spit game to get rejected to prove I was right and I wasn’t a good man and it was ok if I died cuz I was a bad person. I transferred to a new place now where I have friends but legit I now have horrible anxiety to the point where I get anxious at the thought of a woman sitting next to me