
Not liking me, telling everyone I do things that I didn’t do, not letting me take breaks, as often or as long as others, saying backhanded shit to my face, but mostly talking a lot of shit abt me behind my back and that last one im only realizing was happening in hindsight. It got so bad that I got fired from my last job for something that I already knew everyone there did. It’s been months since I worked there and one of my friends finally told me that one of the people on my shift called hr
I stand up for myself but bullies aren’t usually direct with me bcs of that. They make offhanded comments to my face but talk shit behind my back. Most recently someone I thought I was cool with cause they never showed any direct signs of critique towards me reported me for being 3min late and got me fired. I didn’t even find out she reported me until months after I was fired cause no one that knew abt it had the decency to tell me
I did right off some of the harsher stuff on jealousy but at the same time I can’t just always blow sunshine up my own ass when other factors play in. The place I got fired from was already widely known as a horrible work environment so that was definitely a factor. I also don’t have much going on in my life I feel like to be jealous of but ik my personal perspective can be limited. I do think I receive a combination of jealousy and judgement from ppl with lives that are very different than mine
I think people expect me to do and be more since my mom still supports me and I have a boyfriend that feels lucky to be with me. But in contrast to them their hardships and life have given them unique opportunities and identity that I haven’t gotten from my isolated restrictive experience. (Ex. I’m lucky I have both my parents vs they’re lucky they had a chance to emancipate and work for themselves and go out and make friends BUT I wish I could have emancipated myself and been my own person)
I did make these posts to try to figure out what kind of behavior I regularly do gets me targeted for this type of treatment. Bcs no one deserves to be treated the way I’ve been treated in an environment that’s supposed to be welcoming and professional. I do feel like my personality and appearance play into all this and I just don’t have enough experience to understand how or read situations. Thanks for the honest take I really hope I can find better luck and understand myself/relations better
One particular instance where I actually did overhear ppl talking behind my back was when, at my first job, my coworkers forgot I was there and started talking about me. One of the older women that had always been nice to me said I was like an alien. Then someone realized I was in earshot and she remembered I was there and she changed her tone. She said I was like a pretty alien so I was like an angel. I didn’t consider that bullying at the time but my most recent experience brought it to mind