Girl Talk on Sidechat | okay i’m gonna tell yall this bc i can’t tell my friends but i think my S/A has made me so ugly. like i know im pretty but internally im scared and sadly my brain can’t tell the difference between a gun to my head and a guy wanting more than a friendship-

Sidechat

Download

Join communities on Sidechat Download

Girl Talk 22w

okay i’m gonna tell yall this bc i can’t tell my friends but i think my S/A has made me so ugly. like i know im pretty but internally im scared and sadly my brain can’t tell the difference between a gun to my head and a guy wanting more than a friendship-

Anonymous 22w

-and i just feel like it makes me undesirable and unwanted and like i don’t ever rlly talk abt it so like no one rlly knows but i feel like the guys who do know switch up and treat me just like a victim and some fragile little flower or whatever and like i try and get myself too but my brain immediately panics and sometimes i just wish i had let me ex fully yk me bc i tend to think that i wouldn’t be as scared if i didn’t have the strength to say no and fight him off me.

Anonymous 22w

THIS HAPPENED TO ME TOO i promise you it did not make you ugly. you may feel that way an it’s a really weird thing to experience. like i know i’m objectively attractive but getting 🍇 made me feel disgusting for some reason. it took me a while to realize it was part of my trauma response to the shame i felt

Anonymous

OP 22w

i get that omg and then the first time i left my room after self isolating for two days after the incident i went outside and felt like everyone was looking at me weirdly and i felt so disgusting. like i felt like for some reason people sensed a weakness. idk it was so weird for me and every time i interacted with a man id get paranoid and it’s still so hard to deal with

Anonymous

#1 22w

no literally like i’m okay if we’re friends but the second you wanna like be with me romantically my brain panics and basically says that there’s a damn g*n on my head

Anonymous

OP 22w

bro yes and i can’t be alone with a guy anymore or else i get paranoid and i’ll literally freak out. like ik it sounds like i’m doing too much but this has really made mundane things harder for me

Anonymous

#1 22w

NO SAME. like i couldn’t be in a room alone with my guy COUSINS who have babied me my whole life bc i was scared

Anonymous

OP 22w

yes you get it!! but fr though i hope you’re okay and taking care of yourself. your reaction, however “dramatic” it may seem, is 100% valid. please stay safe and remember that someone else’s disgusting actions does NOT equate to your value.