
Girl I feel you I kept looking for guys because I wanted to be wanted and it would turn into this spiral of me being good and sweet but still silently repulsed and angered by them and now my relationship with love is all messed up. Not really the same situation but I understand where you’re coming from
no i know exactly what you mean. i mean, i truly knew deep down i didn’t love my ex in that way. i think i was lying to myself because i liked the idea of a relationship. he was a bummy bf, didn’t do shit for me and never took me out and was extremely manipulative so overtime my resentment built. i can’t even look at him without wanting to genuinely punch him, im not kidding you. like i would love to punch him in the face as hard as i can because of the amount of despise i feel for this man.